So I've really dropped the ball on blogging. Now that half of my audience has moved across the country to be closer, I lost half my reason for writing in the first place. Aaaand not much has changed.
Doug's looking at going back to school in the fall to finish up his bachelor's degree. He got accepted into CSUCI and just needs to meet with counselors to figure out classes and to apply for financial aid and student loans. We're hoping he can get that done soon so that he can return this fall. Getting him through school gets us one step closer to starting our life out.
I've been working with both Target and American Eagle. I'm still deciding which I like better. Both can be amazing, and both can suck. It really depends on the customers/guests that you get that day and how they interact with you. It's amazing how some people can really make your day. I have regulars at both places. And then there are the regular mean people. The really bitter people who try to bring you down with them. I hope to never become like that.
American Eagle is great because it's much more variety. You aren't stuck in a box for hours on end. You move around a lot. And you do different jobs. You interact, and then you task. And there's nothing measuring your speed of your transactions, so you can connect better with people (obviously Target isn't designed to be able to do that. People need to get out of there!) And you get to interact with co-workers. You make friends a lot easier.
Target is great because...the company really cares about its employees. Some there might disagree with me, but it really is a great company to work for. The problem with Target is it gets lonely. You can't really interact with your co-workers, or they get mad at you for talking. So you're pretty much on your own for 8 hours, having superficial conversations with people who may or may not get angry at you for trying to meet your quota of Red Cards. Some days aren't like that. When it's slow it's amazing. Plus, I get a lot of hours there. And the higher ups listen to you. I had a half hour conversation with my boss in which he thanked me for my feed back, instead of trying to make excuses for the criticism I was giving.
I can't believe I'm already going to be 24 next week. That I've been out of high school for 6 years. And that I've been out of college for a year. Sometimes I get really discouraged wondering how I've grown at all. How I am any different than I was in high school. But I know I have changed. Drastically. And thank God. Not that I was a terrible person back then. But I was naive. Man was I naive. I wish I could have talked to myself back then. I probably wouldn't have listened to me though.
I've been working on myself a lot the last couple of months. I look at myself and then at who I want to be and try to make the necessary changes. I feel like I've changed a lot just over the last year. I'm not as emotional as I used to be. I'm not as sarcastic either. I still am, but I've needed that defense mechanism a lot less as I work through myself. I still have mad anxiety, and still will have anxiety attacks at work. But I work through them. I've been focusing on love. Love God. Love others. Both can be hard at times. But that's who I want to be.
After not having had a cold for a long time, I've finally caught one. I'm off to take some meds and hopefully sleep it off before waking up early and going to work.
Next week is promising to be a good one. I'm super excited to live it.
