Waiting Game

I don't like not having control. In terms of right now, I don't like not knowing when baby boy is going to decide to make his appearance and not knowing what to expect. It could be a middle of the night thing. It could start with contractions. Or my water could break. In the middle of a store. Or while I'm driving.

I am so excited to meet this little guy that has been poking me for months. The feeling of a baby inside of you is so indescribable and sweet. But not knowing how long I have to wait stresses me out. My due date is in 2 and a half weeks. I was thinking about it today as I was organizing and packing up some of our stuff. Thinking about how he really could come any day now and it'd be "normal" (ok, he'd be a little early, but statistically it'd be "normal"). Or it could be another month and that too would be "normal" (Again, two weeks late would be pushing it, but not unusual or unheard of). So if he follows the former it feels like it's going to be sooo soon, and on the latter I still have a ways to wait. And I don't like not knowing!

Until then I will keep on prepping for our sweet babe. I installed the car seat today and ordered nursing supplies. Everything is coming together and he'll be here soon!

When I really think about it I'm glad that I'm not in control but that I have an amazing loving God that is. He knows the perfect time for baby boy to come out and will let him know when it's time to get moving. I trust that God's hand in this is moving perfectly, the unknown is just so uncomfortable!

Speaking of uncomfortable...this heat wave! It was 100 degrees today! And heat waves and pregnancies do not mix very well. As I mentioned in my previous post, I'm already warm blooded. And now it's super warm and it feels like there's no escape. Even with the windows open and fans blowing it's so hot in our apartment. Especially when the wind dies and it's just stagnant air. I've been finding relief in cold showers and baths. Today Doug and I went to my parents and cooled off in the pool. The pool was 80 degrees and it was almost too warm. It felt so good, but I didn't get cold at all. Then I was able to take a nap there, since it's too hot to sleep here.

I've also made batches of sweet tea and green tea to keep us cool. I'm not drinking the sweet tea since it has caffeine though (green tea does too, just a lot less), I've also been enjoying a scoop of ice cream here and there (don't tell my doctor though), and cold watermelon.

I talked to Devonna today and she said that they were going to go outside to play, but it was starting to snow there. I'd much rather have snow than this heat!