Thursday, September 22, 2011

Laughing at my humaness

A couple weeks ago we looked at an apartment and at first dismissed it because of the "no pet" policy. We want to be able to get a dog eventually, and don't want to have to move in order to do so. It was a nice place, and even had an ocean view. It was an older building, but many apartment buildings in Ventura are (especially those in our price range).

After talking and discussing about it, we decided that it wouldn't be fair to the dog to have it in an apartment anyway. Sure, it would force us to get some exercise by taking it for walks frequently, but even taking it out to use the bathroom would become very annoying very quick. So we called to make sure that the apartment was still available and then mailed in our application.

We've been praying about a new place ever since we left for Europe. I keep telling God that he knows exactly where he wants us to be and he's already chosen our future home. I keep praying for him to guide us to where he wants us to be, and then found peace in knowing that he has it taken care of. I kinda felt like our change of heart about the apartment was a slight nudge.

Today we found out that we didn't get the apartment that we had applied for. Apparently they leased it out the same day that they received our application.

I was really bummed at first and then was reminded that since it didn't work out, that's not the place that God is wanting us to be. I had to laugh at my childish reply of "But I wanted THAT one!" Haha oh man. Typical human to hand over control to the maker of the universe and then pout and try to snatch it back when it doesn't go the way we expect.

So we started calling other places to set up appointments. We have one for either Saturday or Sunday (depending on the landlord's availability once Doug is off work). This one is also an ocean view, and it has a fire place in the apartment and a pool in the complex. I feel like God is reassuring us that he's in control. Even if we don't get this one either, He's already shown me that he's going to take care of us and knows what we really want (a fire place would be awesome, so it's already one-upped the place that we didn't get).

This is just to say that God is God, I am not, and I need to keep trusting him to provide for us. Ah, the pathetic-ness of being human :)

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Just heard today that our country is going to the dogs. Average household in America has 2 dogs and less than 1 child. Don't know how those dogs are going to pay for your social security!

Anonymous said...

Shouldn't humans be wanting to beget humans?!